Madam Flow

So I’m a christian and most  of you already know this, (I hope).

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My life the last couple of weeks (months) has been insane. I’ve gone through massive changes (moving to another country) and massive heart ache (my cousin died of Cancer before coming here and my Grandma passed recently, amongst other things).  so today I woke up and I thought about God and my relationship with him. Everyone (most) that know me know what a MASSIVE role my faith plays in my life and if we talk I’ll probably bring it up 1,2,3,4,5+ times, which often annoys my atheist/non-religious friends (i love you guys). But today I woke up and realised there have been some changes. I still LOVE God but I don’t big him up as  much as I used to, I still have FAITH but it hurts so much more now when things go wrong, I still talk about him (sometimes) and I’m not perfect but I’m trying to be.  

Change.

There are so many difficult elements to moving abroad, (making friends, banking issues, getting lost all the time bluergh etc) but the hardest for me was finding a church! I struggled to find a church for 5 WEEKS (runs from church to church) ! which led me to concluding that I didn’t need to go church I’d just lay in bed on sunday maybe stream Bethel Tv and Saddle back  (if I can be bothered). This hurt my heart and I spent most sundays (on twitter) defeated and pining for my old church family! 

But last week God found me and brought me to UCKG Antwerp, it was beautiful I felt loved and needed, I worshiped God in 7 languages (though I only speak 1 of them). I am so grateful for this and its so amazing that when I became faithless God STILL remained faithful. They invited me to help out with there young peoples programme on Saturday, I had already been booked for a shoot on this day, I prayed about this and my prayer was answered (shoot got postponed). 

I love him more for this, so yeah I just wanted to share my happy and if you talk to me today i’ll probably talk to you about my BIG God 1,2,3,4,5+ times. 

David speaks my heart right here - I rejoiced with those who said to me, “Let us go to the house of the Lord.” Psalm 122 vs 1 

Thank you Guys for reading & thank you God for EVERYTHING ! <3